Somehow it seems wrong
I saw this posted in FB:
“Please, don’t talk to me about your past. I don’t care who you were or what you did. I don’t want to know who you slept with or who you loved. I don’t need to know who hurt you or disrespected you. Please, don’t tell me about your mistakes or who almost died for your love. I don’t want to know the words you didn’t say out of fear or the ones you said out of anger. I don’t need to know about the gifts that were given to you or the ones that remind you of certain places or people. As a matter of fact, I don’t want to know anything about you. I just want to know you with me. As a matter of fact, I just want you to tell me what it all means to you without telling me the reasons why. Please, don’t show me who you were, but who you are. I want you to create yourself, liberate, love, laugh, expose and be with me who you’ve always wanted to be, because only then, I’ll be able to show you who I am instead of who I was and what I did.”
It was getting some positive attention by some women I know but my immediate response to it wasn't positive although I have to think about why.
I think on the face of it it sounds romantic and sweet but for me I couldn't be with someone who doesn't want to know me as I was because how else would he know who I am now? Everything I have been and everyone I've loved, all the tears I shed, all the hearts I've broken I'm the sum total of all my experiences. You can't love me now today without loving me then. I'm not a prisoner to my past but it cannot be excised from me. To separate me from before you is to say you don't want me, you want the idea of me. You want the me that you can mold a blank canvass to paint all your ideas and dreams upon unsullied by my actual humanity. Thanks but no thanks.
“Please, don’t talk to me about your past. I don’t care who you were or what you did. I don’t want to know who you slept with or who you loved. I don’t need to know who hurt you or disrespected you. Please, don’t tell me about your mistakes or who almost died for your love. I don’t want to know the words you didn’t say out of fear or the ones you said out of anger. I don’t need to know about the gifts that were given to you or the ones that remind you of certain places or people. As a matter of fact, I don’t want to know anything about you. I just want to know you with me. As a matter of fact, I just want you to tell me what it all means to you without telling me the reasons why. Please, don’t show me who you were, but who you are. I want you to create yourself, liberate, love, laugh, expose and be with me who you’ve always wanted to be, because only then, I’ll be able to show you who I am instead of who I was and what I did.”
It was getting some positive attention by some women I know but my immediate response to it wasn't positive although I have to think about why.
I think on the face of it it sounds romantic and sweet but for me I couldn't be with someone who doesn't want to know me as I was because how else would he know who I am now? Everything I have been and everyone I've loved, all the tears I shed, all the hearts I've broken I'm the sum total of all my experiences. You can't love me now today without loving me then. I'm not a prisoner to my past but it cannot be excised from me. To separate me from before you is to say you don't want me, you want the idea of me. You want the me that you can mold a blank canvass to paint all your ideas and dreams upon unsullied by my actual humanity. Thanks but no thanks.
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