Adventures in Emmieland

I’m almost 44 and there is some stuff that people have forgotten to mention about that. Stuff about how you wake up one day to discover your body has decided to mutiny.  One no one said anything about the suddenness of your periods going wonky. I was just strolling along with my trust period app gi vine me a clue for if not the exact day the general week I’d start  accurately for a few years now and boom out of nowhere I go from having a decent concept to being two weeks late. The only time I was ever this late is when I was pregnant but given circumstances that doesn’t seem like the most likely culprit this time. A couple folks mentioned stress but let’s be real here, I’m bipolar, riddled with anxiety, in near constant pain, and currently living in a country I’m still getting used to. Stressed is my state of being. It never bothered my body before but maybe being almost 44 is a game changer. The other weirdo body issue is driving me crazy. I have less hair. Now my hair ...

I'm not usually one to dis the US, I am rather critical of many of its policies (rightfully so I think) but all in all I am happy enough to be a citizen. Now I have been visiting CA for about 3 yrs now and today I was once again impressed with a few key differences in the manner i which some things are handled. Das, as I'm sure I've noted before, is bipolar and recently things have been a bit unstable. Today it came up with a friend the frustration we've faced she suggested I contact the local MP. Now I have heard of people contacting government officials but my experience has led me to believe that it is generally a wasted effort. I did it anyway. The experience I've had has been startling. I called the first place which was incidentally the wrong place, they gave me the info to what they thought was the right place. Due to some recent redistricting the second place wasn't right either but not only did the person answering the phone give me the right people...

Often when it comes up that I’ve been married theee times, I get a look. I’ve been in the company of people who know about my marital history and they just happen to decide a conversation about my generation’s inability to commit, soon after my arrival. Three marriages seems a bit more than strictly necessary, admittedly even I sometimes find it excessive but then I think about why I’ve been married three times. In my first marriage I was ok, not skipping off walls happy but not desperately unhappy. I think I was like people are on average. We had our issues and there were a few attempts at reconciliation instigated by him. By the time I said I’m done I was over it. That was the hardest because we had kids and I hadn’t had a job, not to mention we both had examples of long if not happy marriages in our immediate families. It was as if we were thumbing our noses at their commitment. What makes us so special that a little unhappiness warrants such drastic actions. Around that time I ha...

I've heard people get upset by what someone else thought was a compliment based on their own context not that of the speaker. This was on my mind when I was listening to some music and the featured guy came on and said something to the effect of I'm not calling a woman out here name, bad bitch is the only thing I call you, not a perfect quote but you get the idea. I have plenty of friends, and myself to be honest, who would not be at all thrilled for some stranger to call me a bad bitch. However I had to step back and think about why I would be upset, am I assuming I'm being mocked, am I assuming a bad attempt at hitting on me, do I think I'm too good to be called a bad bitch? In my case I think when I hear someone talking about a woman as a bad bitch they mean someone who kicks ass and takes names all the while maintaining perfect makeup, nails, and hair. A take charge kinda woman, basically I assume they are talking about a woman unlike myself so if they are redirec...