Angsty slave girl

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I hate feeling caught in a no win situation when i'm being asked questions and i'm finding it makes me angry and leery. I can take being physically tormented a lot better than I can this type of mental stuff. I get the feeling of just wanting to blow up and say say things like "of course the answer is no what kind of idiot would say yes to that?" but at the same time I actually want to say yes b/c I feel he wants me to say yes but I can't say yes b/c I really don't want to say yes and if I say yes and he follows through with whatever he's threatening he'll tell me that I said yes... I feel like I'm 8 again and my mom is asking me if I want to be a lady and wear dresses all the time and I'm saying yes b/c I know she wants me to but I'm feeling trapped b/c I don't even like wearing dresses all that much and when I eventually complain about it I'm told that I was given a choice and I agreed to it. It's not the same but it feels the same and it's not a good feeling.

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