Life's Curveballs

Just when you think things are calming down life throws a curveball. Last night puppy 2.0 got into some medicine and was having major reactions so we rushed her to the vet. 

After hours there what it came down to is that they would not treat her without a couple thousand right then and the treatment cost estimated around five thousand. Suffice it to say that was a bit out of our range. What really got me though was that was for a wait and see treatment. So we decided to take her home against medical advice. 

Now she seems to be doing a mite better but she's no where near normal yet so we are hoping for the best. 

Das is really torn up because he was the one not paying attention and left the meds within her reach. Honestly I swing between aggravation at him for simply not being more diligent (this is the second time she's gotten into his meds but the first time it wasn't bad) and just going with the "shit happens" attitude. 

I'm pretty sure he will have a complete break down if she dies. It's hard to tell someone guilt ridden that they are pissing you off so I've held my tongue but when he said he'd rather it be him than her I was livid. I love my pups but frankly there is no comparison to how I love him. In a them or him scenario I would always choose him but I felt like he was saying he would choose to leave me. 

In my saner moments I know he wasn't thinking of it like that but my moments aren't always saner. So stressed out since we didn't great home til 4:30am and I have gotten very little sleep because she keeps tipping and howling but at least that means her breathing isn't compromised which is a worry. So I'm on the couch tired as hell but hanging in there.