She is me

You know the best thing about fiction, it's so often non fictional. I was reading a dark mafia romance, one of my favorite kinds, and came across a character I both rooted for and wanted to slap due to her cluelessness. It took reading through three books before I realized why she worked my nerves so badly, she was me.

I clued in when I found myself agreeing that keeping her indoors/constantly attended in order to keep her out of trouble since she was hopeless at doing it herself, it gave me pause. Hmm wait a minute that sounds rather familiar, oh right that would be my life sans the billionaire mafioso. Nothing like a reality check brought on by a fictional character. I loved that she was soft and vulnerable and pliant but not weak although nearly everyone thought she was because her responses we not the norm.

One thing I don't think people get is how you need to be strong to go through the world vulnerable. Softness is not for wimps, lol. In fact this girl was exactly the prototype I think of when I say someone is a natural submissive. Not someone to whom serving comes easily but someone who in life. Not just kink finds themselves drawn to dominant people and easily led by them, often to their detriment. When you are like that it's hard for most people to sympathize since personal strength and strong individuality is so prized in our society. I love it when books help introspection.