Adventures in Emmieland

I read an article by a woman approaching fifty that spoke about her experience with becoming invisible to men. She said she was no longer seen as a fun flirty girl but the dotty aunt. What intrigued me was the story she used to illustrate her point. At a party not knowing anyone she inserted herself into a conversation between two men she did not know then proceeded to basically grill them trying to force conversation well after they had indicated no interest in talking to her. She didn’t let them alone until one was downright rude. This to me isn’t a case of an older woman becoming invisible, it’s a case of being annoying and rude assuming you could disregard social cues by virtue of being an attractive female. She may have encountered more clear cut incidences where she was ignored, overlooked, patronized, desexualized or whatever but the story she told didn’t illustrate any of that. She doesn’t know if she had approached the conversation less aggressively if they would have respon...

There is a Laibach song that says “ life is life” they certainly have it right on that one. So the last eek or two I’ve been hanging on precariously to the sliver of mental stability I have. I realized I needed a living time out when I started cursing the bathroom floor and wondering aloud why boys don’t notice they missed the bowl. Usually I just roll my eyes and clean it up, one of the “perks” of slavery but I was straight ready to fight about it. So I spent several days in bed. When I’m like that not only do I hibernate I don’t get shit done. Dishes weren’t washed, laundry piled up to unreasonable amounts, food was minimal and definitely no talking. Just vegged away on short stories and picture taking. My ex says he knows taking pictures is my go to destresser so he was worried about me given how much I was posting on the gram. Since I actually enjoy taking and editing pictures I’m going to have to remember to do it when I’m not a hairs breath away from a breakdown. Speaking of ...

This is the best picture I’ve seen of PKD kidneys. I’ve seen people pictures once they ere taken out but this gives a much better visual on jut how much smooshing of other organs is going on. I’m lucky in that while I have a belly I’m not quite looking highly pregnant and I can find cute clothes. Some may think that being concerned about my outfits is frivolous in light of  hoping to not need a transplant or dialysis but looking cute helps me feel better. There is so much going on that I can’t conrol that being able to throw on an adorable dress gives me something. I wonder how many people have sexual issues with PKD. I’m on a couple of FB groups but I can’t recall any discussions on it. I don’t even know if nephrologist bring it up but thy should. I know I was thrown by how much experimentation it took for us to adapt to my ever growing belly along with the sensitivity it brings.  There are so many day to day things that are affected like breathing, gas, pain that can ...

I think I almost figured out how to download pictures! The only issue is they aren’t all available, I can only find through February. Oh well at least I have birthday pics finally.     All these are from my birthday, prewar, wet, then curled dry. Those rag rollers are on point, lol

I woke up wondering why a word would be considered inappropriate for polite conversation is deemed perfectly fine if said in another language. The one that came to mind is vagina vs yoni. I’ve been around people who look faint at the barest whisper of someone using the word vagina but will happily chat for ages about yonis. Is this a thing that only occurs in English? Now I wish I spoke several languages so I could get a sense of these things. Gonna have to poll my multilingual friends. Totally unrelated.... I’m thinking people seriously downplay the forgetfulness aspect of learning disorders. Trying to remember the steps in order to write this post since my page no longer has a New Post button. I go through this every single time I post here. Sadly it’s not confined to fairly benign things like blog posting, it affects darn near everything. I often stare at my phone trying to remember the magical sequence to turn it off and on. I have a iPhone it’s not tricky. And if I need to cha...

On the verge of waking up a few minutes ago it occurred to me that the reason people, especially parents insist on everyone in their sphere getting dressed daily is so that they don’t have to wash pajamas every other day. Seems obvious now. This is the kind of thing that runs through my head as I wake up. Yesterday the landlords told us, again that we have too many things pulling power for the available power in the house. I can’t recall the exact numbers but it was mentioned that the fridge, stove, septic system, water pump, and furnace use most of it leaving us with very little for things like lights, electric kettles, laptops, and printers. My main thought was the stuff that is using the vast majority is not negotiable and things we can’t control. If the person use wattage is so low then obviously it’s not enough for a reasonable household. The place obviously needs rewriting and upgrading but instead they tell us not to have on lights, to turn off dam near everything and not to...