Laying here

I am laying here
On the brink of exhaustion
You know that place late at night that slows down your brain but also puts everything into stake relief.like a little kid I fight it not wanting sleep to overcome me yet
So much to do so much to learn and yet taking those first steps is hard
Hard to see how such tentative actions will bring fulfillment.
But be that as it may
I'm willing to risk it
For he is my reward