Is it about trust?
So there is this thread on fet about monitoring s-types. The original poster mentioned something about loving the trust involved in PE relationships and also listed a bunch of monitoring methods. Lots of folks either took offense or thought that the act of monitoring bespoke a lack of trust or at least wasn't a good way to nurture trust. A couple of folks mentioned doing it for the sake of safety and one said he'd done it at his slave's request because it was hot. Some not so friendly but still civil discussion ensued.
I'm wondering if one way to look at monitoring and being monitored is about trust but unlike the way it seems to be usually interpreted. I'm assuming that it takes a good deal of trust on the slave's part to hand over that kind of accessibility. They trust their master to not use information gathered with ill intent. It's interesting to me that I've seen a lot of posts talking about how much slaves trust their masters with their lives but when talking about the idea of a master having a desire to pare down their privacy then trusting the masters goes out the window. It's like I trust him as long as he never wants to check up on me. Maybe even I trust him to check up on me but only if he does it in ways in which I am completely comfortable.
I realize that complete disclosure thing isn't everyone's bag but it's mine so I see things with that bias. I'm not always comfortable with how much he can see if he ever took a mind to do so, all my FB conversations, all my private correspondence, and all text, as well asking for an accounting of my phone conversations. Not always comfortable but for me that discomfort forces me to be open b/c the idea of him discovering something that I hadn't already told him sets off my "danger Will Robinson" alarms. It wouldn't be pretty. More than that I'd feel that I wasn't being true to the crux of our dynamic, that I'm his to control and know.
I'm wondering if one way to look at monitoring and being monitored is about trust but unlike the way it seems to be usually interpreted. I'm assuming that it takes a good deal of trust on the slave's part to hand over that kind of accessibility. They trust their master to not use information gathered with ill intent. It's interesting to me that I've seen a lot of posts talking about how much slaves trust their masters with their lives but when talking about the idea of a master having a desire to pare down their privacy then trusting the masters goes out the window. It's like I trust him as long as he never wants to check up on me. Maybe even I trust him to check up on me but only if he does it in ways in which I am completely comfortable.
I realize that complete disclosure thing isn't everyone's bag but it's mine so I see things with that bias. I'm not always comfortable with how much he can see if he ever took a mind to do so, all my FB conversations, all my private correspondence, and all text, as well asking for an accounting of my phone conversations. Not always comfortable but for me that discomfort forces me to be open b/c the idea of him discovering something that I hadn't already told him sets off my "danger Will Robinson" alarms. It wouldn't be pretty. More than that I'd feel that I wasn't being true to the crux of our dynamic, that I'm his to control and know.
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