Jealous

It occurred to me that I can so easily become a festering bundle of jealousy, for no reason. Of course I think he no reason thing is what defines something as irrational and there are days I have the market cornered on irrational. 

Looking at Das chatting with a park worker this afternoon instead of paying me all the attention had me feeling some kind of way for a minute. Luckily I quickly got ahold of my runaway brain. 

I don't think feeling jealous even if it is completely baseless is a terrible thing but how you deal with it. That right there is how you drone yourself. Are you someone who throws tantrums, do you give your partner the silent treatment, do you start flirting with others to get back at them? None of these are healthy options. I should know I've done them all. 

These days impressed of a quick side eye before talking myself into a more reasonable frame of mind and I'm not too grown to ask for hugs or attention if I simply need to feel him. Works loads better. 

I feel like I'm late getting on the jealous train since I had so few incidences of jealously in previous relationships. Glad to see that I have grown into a fairly mature if goofy as hell baby girl.