Happiness is...

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I've been told lately that I seem more confident and happy. The word radiant has even been used a few times.  What is interesting to me is at the same time I am more isolated now than I have ever been.  My mindset has evolved so quietly that I hadn't even realized the full extent of my dependency until recently, I mean I knew I was dependent but I still held to the notion that if Das were to meet an untimely demise I would be sad but able to function on my own.  I wouldn't.  Now I am starting to understand the hoopla behind the insistence of the danger and wrongness of crating that level of dependence in a slave, understand it but not agree with it.  It's not for everyone, I am not everyone. I am me and for me it's absolutely right.

It's funny some of the people asking me what the secret is to my obvious happiness wouldn't believe me if I told them.  :)

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