looking back
For some reasons I find myself thinking back to when we decided to formalize our desire to proceed as master and slave. True to techno geek form this conversation took place over email and when he asked me if I was sure this is what I wanted I took a bit of time to respond because I wanted to be sure that I was sure. By a bit of time I mean about a day maybe two, lol. I sent him a resounding yes and thought it was all going to be peaches and cream but low and behold we actually had our first bump in the road and we hadn't even really started traveling yet.
While I had been busy making absolutely sure I knew my own mind he had had some misgivings about the venture. He saw better than I did at the time the all encompassing nature of what we were getting into and realized the potential for disruption of our lives as we knew them. At the time we were both married, not to each other. Me to my sweetheart of a now ex and him to his first slave. When he told me he didn't think it was a good idea I believe the appropriate expression is "I lost my shit" suffice it to say it wasn't pretty. We hashed it out, decided the potential pitfalls were indeed worth it and went in with our eyes open.
I think it's difficult to have a romantic view of M/s when right from the start how shit can throw your life in turmoil is thrown in your face. There is no hiding behind the "I didn't think it was going to be in real life" defense. I knew exactly what he meant by the words "own" "obey" and "absolute" and I'm glad I did. Although we have had our share of ups and downs and even misunderstandings the foundation has been good and over time has grown firmer. Looking back makes me smile but not as much as looking forward.
While I had been busy making absolutely sure I knew my own mind he had had some misgivings about the venture. He saw better than I did at the time the all encompassing nature of what we were getting into and realized the potential for disruption of our lives as we knew them. At the time we were both married, not to each other. Me to my sweetheart of a now ex and him to his first slave. When he told me he didn't think it was a good idea I believe the appropriate expression is "I lost my shit" suffice it to say it wasn't pretty. We hashed it out, decided the potential pitfalls were indeed worth it and went in with our eyes open.
I think it's difficult to have a romantic view of M/s when right from the start how shit can throw your life in turmoil is thrown in your face. There is no hiding behind the "I didn't think it was going to be in real life" defense. I knew exactly what he meant by the words "own" "obey" and "absolute" and I'm glad I did. Although we have had our share of ups and downs and even misunderstandings the foundation has been good and over time has grown firmer. Looking back makes me smile but not as much as looking forward.
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