Handing Imperfection
Reading a discussion on screw ups sparked thought about how they are handled here. I'd love to say it's a non-issue because in my wondrously perfect obedience nothing is ever mishandled, forgotten or botched but bald face lying isn't my forte.
The difference I noticed between what I was reading of other's experiences and the way things happen here is that others seem to have a "this is what happens" whereas here I have to say "it depends". I don't know if I'll get punished or just a talking to or if he'll get mad, laugh, sigh, shake his head or what because it all depends on the specific circumstances. I'm pretty sure we will talk about things at some point but to what degree I have no idea, some things he really doesn't like to linger over and some he allows me to hash out repeatedly until I've worked it through. I'm not always able to tell beforehand what will fall into which category. Sometimes if it's a fixable situation he'll fix it at other times he'll have me do it. If it's not fixable then we deal with it.
The unpredictability of his responses to my mishaps is oddly enough comforting to me. I don't ever feel like we are doing things by rote and since things can/do vary from situation to situation I have the security that he's paying attention to me. Sometimes a bit too much attention. :) It keeps me on my toes as well as soothes the voice in me that's constantly saying "Daddy look at me!" with "I see you Babygirl, and will give you what you need."
The difference I noticed between what I was reading of other's experiences and the way things happen here is that others seem to have a "this is what happens" whereas here I have to say "it depends". I don't know if I'll get punished or just a talking to or if he'll get mad, laugh, sigh, shake his head or what because it all depends on the specific circumstances. I'm pretty sure we will talk about things at some point but to what degree I have no idea, some things he really doesn't like to linger over and some he allows me to hash out repeatedly until I've worked it through. I'm not always able to tell beforehand what will fall into which category. Sometimes if it's a fixable situation he'll fix it at other times he'll have me do it. If it's not fixable then we deal with it.
The unpredictability of his responses to my mishaps is oddly enough comforting to me. I don't ever feel like we are doing things by rote and since things can/do vary from situation to situation I have the security that he's paying attention to me. Sometimes a bit too much attention. :) It keeps me on my toes as well as soothes the voice in me that's constantly saying "Daddy look at me!" with "I see you Babygirl, and will give you what you need."
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