Sad thoughts

Yesterday was my baby kidlet's birthday hard to believe he's already 17. It's been a year since I last saw him and less than a yr since I last spoke to him which makes me sad. As much as I hope that we will reconnect at some point I am aware that it may not happen. I try not to let that thought get me down too much but some days it's difficult especially with not knowing how much of what I was told of the reason we aren't in contact was truth since I wasn't given the opportunity to talk to him directly and find out what was on his mind.  Maybe one day I'll find out the truth of how and what happened, maybe not, either way I hope that right now he's happy and thriving and somewhere in his heart knows that I love him.