So Many Feels

It's been a weird few weeks as far as sleep goes. I've always had vivid dreams but these last few weeks I've been dreaming so strongly that at times I can't tell if I'm asleep or awake and even odder the dreams are all centered around people and events that have been negative. I've found myself waking myself by fussing people out and sharing opinions with folks that I've never done before. The first few times I noticed I still felt angry and upset after waking even for a few days on end but in this last week something has shifted and and although my dreams are still filled with confrontations I feel better when I wake up.

I guess I'm working through some stuff and truly letting it go  but it's funny that it all seems to get done in my sleep. I guess the mind does what it needs to and if I refuse to yell at people while awake... lol.

The more I open up and really fully feel my feelings the more stuff comes up that I thought was taken care of ages ago. I've become a virtual watering pot which is still weird to me after having spent years not crying. I even found myself on the edge of crying at mass. Everything feels so big these days. I don't know if it's hormones or some type of atmospheric shift or a side effect of feeling safe, maybe all the above. Whatever it is it's highly disconcerting.