Weekend rambles

I got my drivers license yesterday go me! I'm pretty excited about the steps we are taking to establish ourselves and with each thing checked off my list in my quest to become a resident I get giddier.

Something I have been thinking about is the lack of a kink community. Well there probably is one we just aren't a part of it. I don't know that we ever will be.

Back in TX we got to a point of not attending many things but we were still surrounded by people to whom we didn't have to explain our relationship. Here I have only met vanilla people and being looked at oddly is disconcerting to me. I'm sure that if I didn't call Das daddy and wasn't so obviously submissive to him then we wouldn't get get such strange looks but it's not something I really think about in the moment.

The way we are together baffles people a lot it seemingly but at the same time it also seems to hold some appeal to different folks. I'memotionally taken back to our early days in this dynamic when I was more reticent to be seen as obviously his outside of our home. It isn't that we have stopped interacting in our way but I am more aware of it like I was then. Not being nearly solely with people who are like-minded or at the least fairly knowledgeable about our type of dynamic has taken away some of the auto pilot.

That actually might not be too bad since it is so easy to not put as much thoughtfulness into things.

I miss fet life too since we have been without consistent internet I rarely have had an opportunity to look through interesting discussions. That should change tomorrow as we are scheduled for wireless installation.

This situation is bringing to mind all the "don't scare the vanillas" and debates about pushing things on people. I don't particularly care if complete strangers are ok with our style of interacting but when meeting friends of his I'm more aware and somewhat self conscious. It is not a concern about us being inappropriate simply a stark awareness of being different. At times I really miss blending in.