More stuff, More Things
The beginning of this week was busy, running around getting stuff filed, doctor's appointments, random shopping and whatnot. Yesterday we just relaxed. In fact I might have actually collapsed. I am tired this morning, probably b/c I insisted on waking up several times last night for no good reason other than weird dreams. Leprechans, enchanted rivers, running away from unknown evil and something that was important in the last dream but fuzzy now. If I don't write down or speak my dreams right away I generally lose them even though I don't lose the feeling of them.
Today we get a new fence on one side, exciting stuff since our fence is insisting on falling down. You know it's time for something to be done when the city sends you a sweetly worded reminder letter of the fencing standard. Even happier t this moment that we rent. :)
I had completely forgotten how long brands take to stop hurting and pulling. I am reminded every time I flop down or bend over, lol. From the looks of it it's healing fine but ouch, it does like to make itself known. I suppose it is a good way to learn to be mindful in my movements.
On Tuesday night I had an epiphany. I was doing a guided exercise in which pain was used deliberately and there was a point where I thought it was over and inside I was all "yay!" but the music started again and I realized we had to keep going and anger boiled up inside me at the facilitator for torturing me. As I remained focused on the meditation the anger quickly dissipated and I relaxed into the pain, it still hurt but the pain wasn't in the forefront anymore I was in a peaceful calm place. I would describe it as being at one with myself and the pain and at that point it no longer mattered how long the meditation lasted. Mind you I was sore as heck when it ended but I realized that the anger was just a step, I didn't have to stay stuck there and I would naturally move through it, I didn't have to push myself. Given my angst about pain with Das recently this was a very good realization for me. It's made me calmer and more settled feeling.
Today we get a new fence on one side, exciting stuff since our fence is insisting on falling down. You know it's time for something to be done when the city sends you a sweetly worded reminder letter of the fencing standard. Even happier t this moment that we rent. :)
I had completely forgotten how long brands take to stop hurting and pulling. I am reminded every time I flop down or bend over, lol. From the looks of it it's healing fine but ouch, it does like to make itself known. I suppose it is a good way to learn to be mindful in my movements.
On Tuesday night I had an epiphany. I was doing a guided exercise in which pain was used deliberately and there was a point where I thought it was over and inside I was all "yay!" but the music started again and I realized we had to keep going and anger boiled up inside me at the facilitator for torturing me. As I remained focused on the meditation the anger quickly dissipated and I relaxed into the pain, it still hurt but the pain wasn't in the forefront anymore I was in a peaceful calm place. I would describe it as being at one with myself and the pain and at that point it no longer mattered how long the meditation lasted. Mind you I was sore as heck when it ended but I realized that the anger was just a step, I didn't have to stay stuck there and I would naturally move through it, I didn't have to push myself. Given my angst about pain with Das recently this was a very good realization for me. It's made me calmer and more settled feeling.
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