All I have...
Today's broadcast is brought to you by All I Have - Jennifer Lopez ft LL Cool J ;)
Since I am on a "my music" kick I figured I would just go with it, lol.
I have always loved this song. When it came out I was working as an insurance agent traveling all over eastern NC by myself. Anyone who knows me knows I have a negative sense of direction so this was no easy feat. Something about this song was empowering it had that feel of "I got this" which I needed an extra boost of when I was lost in the backwoods at night trying to figure out where I'd made a wrong turn and calculate how much gas I had left before things got ugly if I couldn't find a town that looked like it would be safe for me to stop and fill up in. I had a lot of adventures in that job even though I made very few sales.
I still love the song but now the line that really hits me is LL Cool J's refrain "pride is what you HAD babygirl I'm what you HAVE" It makes me laugh because it is so true in my own life. Das has been breaking down any pride I have that separates me from him. There used to be so many things I wouldn't say or do because eww, it just wasn't done, or I thought it was silly, uncivilized, or any myriad of things. Over time that list has gotten smaller and smaller although I can't say it ever disappears completely. More that it shifts, things come up I didn't even know where issues and he knocks them down, often so smoothly I don't even see it happening I just look down and see the rubble tossed about my feet. I love that there is no destination per say other than growing closer and as we can't fuse into one person that won't stop. We will always have new paths to explore more walls to scale or break. Unlike J-Lo I don't have to leave in order to regain my pride, it's been gifted back to me reshaped so that it is no longer a shield from him but a reflection of my joy in being his.
Since I am on a "my music" kick I figured I would just go with it, lol.
I have always loved this song. When it came out I was working as an insurance agent traveling all over eastern NC by myself. Anyone who knows me knows I have a negative sense of direction so this was no easy feat. Something about this song was empowering it had that feel of "I got this" which I needed an extra boost of when I was lost in the backwoods at night trying to figure out where I'd made a wrong turn and calculate how much gas I had left before things got ugly if I couldn't find a town that looked like it would be safe for me to stop and fill up in. I had a lot of adventures in that job even though I made very few sales.
I still love the song but now the line that really hits me is LL Cool J's refrain "pride is what you HAD babygirl I'm what you HAVE" It makes me laugh because it is so true in my own life. Das has been breaking down any pride I have that separates me from him. There used to be so many things I wouldn't say or do because eww, it just wasn't done, or I thought it was silly, uncivilized, or any myriad of things. Over time that list has gotten smaller and smaller although I can't say it ever disappears completely. More that it shifts, things come up I didn't even know where issues and he knocks them down, often so smoothly I don't even see it happening I just look down and see the rubble tossed about my feet. I love that there is no destination per say other than growing closer and as we can't fuse into one person that won't stop. We will always have new paths to explore more walls to scale or break. Unlike J-Lo I don't have to leave in order to regain my pride, it's been gifted back to me reshaped so that it is no longer a shield from him but a reflection of my joy in being his.
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